haiz. so tired. why is life so stressful? i really cannot take it anymore. its like my head is exploding! honestly, i dunno what to do now.

what does it take to be a good person? whatever i do, i always end up being the one to blame. i hate it. i hate the feeling of getting blamed when all i did was in good intentions. i hate to quarrel over small little things. i knew it was going to happen. i warned them, they didn't listen. & now all this happened, and i'm trying to solve it. not only that, it seemed like i am the one to blame.

i've learnt my lesson.. next time. dun be a busybody. dun stick your nose into people's business, dun look for trouble. shut your big fat mouth. and mind your own business. keep your low profile, and go with the flow. dun try to change anything. dun give suggestions, dun even care or bother about anything but my family.

yes i'm sad. furious. but who cares anyway. i guess i think very differently from what other people think. i can't follow or do something that i don't believe in. unless i don't care at all.

stop it, stella.

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