sigh. recently, i've been realllly frustrated/stressed/etc. pushed to my limit. i really feeel like giving up now. so many problems and troubles. soooo fed up! if i could only throw all these responsibilities away! :( but i can't. I HAVE TO PUSH ON!! for God! if i don't hold on to Him and persist, i think i'll become my old self again T_T hot tempered and stuff. stupid!!!!!!!! will anyone ever understand me?

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hihi! i'm getting busier and busier everyday ):
today i had touch rugby matches! superrrrrrrrrrr duperrrrrrrrrrr tiring i tell you. ZZZ. & tmr, MORE TOUCH RUGBY MATCHES. then after that, maybe training! O_O i'm so tired i tell you! ): i wanna die alr i tell you!
see my next week schedule. (why i post, is partly cos i wanna remind myself. scared forget :3)

NEXT WEEK
monday : suppose to go out with xuemin,eileen and geokting! but must stay home :( (edited)
tuesday : watch the myhope show with cell @ irvin's house @ 10am & go to church to pump airmattresses for YI camp @ 2pm!
wednesday : TENTING (edit) maybe i have to go for blacks training ):
thurday : TENTING. & then watch 'its my life' with geokting, kenneth all? (nt possible.. but will try) (edit)
saturday : back from tenting & myhope! (edit)
sunday : support zealot soccer?

o_O.. i wanna watch cartoons and maybe go shopping again! :D i loveeeeeee to shop :)))))))))) ok whatever :P okay. have ta wake up at 6am tmr. madness. HATE IT. nvm... tahan! T_T so bye. :)

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sigh. SOOOOOOOOOOOOO BUSY AND SOOOOOOOOOOOOO BROKE. B x2! sigh. sigh. hais. sigh. hais.

show you my schedule and you'll understand.

4-6dec Tenting with cell!
8-13dec Contact rugby matches in Laos
15-18dec YI CAMP!
20dec CHRISTMAS BASH

and....... okay. i dunno if i forgot anything else...... BUT even so, i'm busy right?!?!?! O_O" can't believe it actually. zzz.. i hate being busy.. its like being so restricted. sigh.. I WANNA WATCH TV AND LAZE AROUND!!

sigh. FEEELING REALLY CRAP RIGHT NOW........................... nt because i'm so busy.but smth else. so bye

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hihi! i've got the mood to blog. but its sooooooooo late alr! so i'll just blog a bit. :(
had TWO trainings today. never in my whole life have i had two trainings on the same day! stupid.
but it was good i guess :D had 'training' at west coast. train fitness? ha. played the swing swing thing? don't know whats that called. and... played cling cling! and other other stuffs la. not REALLY REALLY training la. but it was tiring :(
then ate at a food place near vivo.. and talk talk talk talk.
then went to another training at st. andrews.. :D fun/scary/fun/scary/fun/scary i don't know! but i think i learnt a lot today :) and I REALLY HOPE I'LL BE OKAY WHEN I COME BACK FROM LAOS. IF i ever come back from laos O_O! (for ppl who dunno why i'm going to laos, its cos i haves rugby matches there. most likely go there sub only la, dun worry. nothing to boast =_=") xuemin CRIED today. cos she has a blueblack on she eyes! but dun worry. shes fine :) with plenty of my loves and cares :D hehe..

okay. its late. i have ta go do my quiet time before i gets sleepy! :) GOODS NIGHT PPLZ!

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hello :D i'm finally blogging.
recently, i've been thinking.. what if i dun make it to JC?
then that means that i have to go overseas to study.. (cos my parents don't want me to go into a poly) and THAT means i have to leave my friends, church, my family.. ): rugby club? :O
sigh. i really hope i get into a good JC.. or i'll have to say byebye to all of you.
i've gotta brush up on my language.. and maybe sciences.. and Amath? X_x argh. EVERYTHING!

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLZ...
God will put me where ever i'm suppose to be.. x_X

*dramatic-puts ah gua hand over forehead* if i ever leave... i just wanna say................................ (i'll say when i really have to leave :P)
grr.. thinking about it makes me sad!
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
the word stupid looks funny now :) after typing so many times. heh. its a brain thing if you don't know.

okay. think i shall go play wii! the dance dance game :O hahaha! stop imaging me play, or you die! ): <
OKAY BYE~

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nowadays.. feeling really weird. not myself. i have a feeling its spiritual attack ): sigh.. feel like everythings a mess. i feel discouragement in sooooooooooooo many directions.. sometimes i feel like giving up.. but i know God is real.. i know God loves me and wants to help me.. if i let Him that is. i know..

why do we always feel like giving up on God when we face difficult situations? when He has never given up on us.... He... is not the one we should blame..

why do we always run away from the One who wants to help us the most?



humans are just so silly. yes? :)
well i'm determined.. to really stay strong & to believe that when the time is right, God will answer.. ^-^



went out with libin and lihong today.. really had a blast :D haha! just something random..

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yo ho! :DD
this looks familiar..... hMMMMM...

Domino!

the bleed.

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