i really love my parents veryy much :D they're the nicest people in singapore! lol. (still ok la) not exactly a perfect couple, (they had countless of fights) but just very simple and loving parents. they quarrel over money issues, r/s issues, children issues before (sadly have to admit. lol).. like any other parent really. but well.. when i was a little girl (just a few years ago :x) my family was what i call destroyed. really. fights almost every night. mom very busy with work that she didn't have time to spend quality time with me. (with me at least. i dunno about my sis) when she came back from work, she would eat her dinner and go straight to bed. & maybe watch some tv la. i dunno if watching tv was her hobby last time or not.. i'm not sure cos i'm too young to realise. but watching tv is definitely her hobby now. -________-" (every night no fail. unless sick!) back to what i was saying, she was just too busy for anything.
my dad was also busy as well i guess. & surely both of them were really stress after work.. so tensions got stronger. when i was a kid, i dunno why.. i dunno if yo'll ever did that before... x_X but... i would sometimes create my own song and just stand by the window singing. (oh man. i'm scarying myself -.- ha, no just kidding ._.) when i'm happy, i sing happy songs. sad, i sing sad songs. i just join words & make a tune. very simple actually. (but of cos just nonsense tune la -.-) tell you why i was standing at the window. :P HAHA. veli interesting de wors. side track abit. HE-HE. tell you my love story LOL.

i was looking down at the playground. :x because when young, i always go down to the playground to play. blindmice, catching, swing, etc etc la. (think you all also got b4) yeah. & there was a malay boy that i liked. he liked me too. ^-^ haha! i dunno man.. just one day my little girlfriend told me that the malay boy likes me. then thats how it started. & i guess... it all just went on smoothly.. i dunno how, what, why, where, when... but we became like a 'couple'. just a clean couple. no holding hands etc etc. (or maybe there is. forgot. but no kissing of cos) but anyway! when i see him at the playground.. it really made me happy.. very happy. its like.. i'm singing a sad song... then i see him, then i start singing a happy song! lol! yeah. & if it was still early, i would rush down to the playground to play with him & of cos other playgrounders :) haha! he even moved beside my house after my neighbour left. :O! isn't he the sweetest?!?!

then during my birthday one day, i had a party at my house.. all my relative came, etc etc.. then after that i looked out of the window... and saw him at the playground!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i quicky & secretly went out of the house (in the middle of the party) & went to the playground to play! it was the first time i ever stayed at the playground so late. so late, that only him, his maid & i was there. it was just.. romantic la. i was sitting at the bridge there.. then he came and lie down horizontally beside me. you know what i mean? yea. his head beside me of cos. he looked into my eyes.. (his eyes veh sparklely lol) then i shy la. so i look away. & i just tot that i should go. worried about my parents and thinking whether the party ended alr anot. so i went off VERY HAPPY. lol! i think it was the happiest day of my life. everything went on as usual.. until one day he had to leave. T_T sometimes i hear fightings at his house.. i dunno if i really heard it there.... or... somewhere else. :\ so everyday, as usual, i would look out of the window just to look for him. but until veh long alr.. i couldn't stop being curious whyyyy he wasn't there and stuffs. so one day i look into his house window at the corridor, his mom recognised me.. & told me he couldn't come out and play.. cos he have to study. so i was like... sad.. & also phew la. sad cos he can't come out to play! but phew cos... i tot he didn't want to see me again. lol..
yeah.. but then after awhile.. they moved.. moved to a very far place. i went there once.. maybe 1 or 2 years or MONTHS after he moved. went there with my dad to pick my maid up. my maid & his maid were good friends & my maid was having her off day so went to his house i guess. when my dad & i reach the block.. i saw this indian girl with her mom walking to somewhere. but just tot that she was just an indian girl so i didn't care & stuff. but when i reached his house, i saw him! i was really happy.... really happy. but his maid was a wet blanket! :@ she said to me... jokingly of course... "(name) has another girlfriend already... indian girlfriend hahah.ah.a.h.ah.a.ha..................." & she told him to tell me. but he was too shy/embarrassed or smth... that he like.. hid in one of his room. =__= then i thought to myself.. 'must be that girl just now'. (smart right) at that time.. i was devastated. but i didn't cry. or my dad would think i'm crazy. my dad was really really fierce when i was young. & he hates it when people cry. (like every other father, right? think they just scared they become soft hearted. dowan to 'lose their cool') yeah so.. i held it in. & then went back home to cry. (come on.. i was heartbroken! lol!) & after that day.. i slowly forgot about him! ^^ haha. the end.

okay. we side tracked a lot but oh well! its my blog so i'm boss :3 WUAHAHAHA! feels good to say that. HAHA okok.. i think i type a lot today. dun think you all will so free as to read all also. :) but, of cos if you really do... WOW! lol.
sayonaraaaararararaaaaaa~ ;}

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HELLLLLO! last night, like i told vonvon, i couldn't sleep. guess why! fine, i'll tell you why. its because Jonas Brothers woke me up!!! :O! i mean, Jonas Brothers poster :x HAHA! it... fell on me while i was sleeping... -.- laugh all you want, meanies. (joe jonas tried to kiss me, ha) & i got shocked! (natural reaction) yeah... but i didn't scream. or that'll be weird :) HE-HE. kinda shocked that eileen also experience before! LOL! we're somehow alike :D HAHA. (her gain)

so after that, i just put Jonas Brothers aside and tried to sleep again. i couldn't sleep! dunno excited my birthday or scared of exams or what! so.... scared not enough sleep for tmr's exam whuts............. then cannot do well & stuffs.. so well...... my last option was to sleep with my parents, again. HA! becos of their warmth, etc etc, i tot i could sleep! (& i took my hp... & i saw 11 messages. i think i know why heh. :D but i didn't read them yet. too dead to.)

BUT BUT BUT BUT... i couldn't! not because they we snoring & stuff.. when i went in, they were veli quiet :D so happy worrzxzxz.. then after awhile. snoring start again. whooopeee. -.-
i was so afraid that i couldn't do well for Emath paper cos of not enough sleep, that i prayed to God for them to stop snoring! & tell you what. He answered! LOL 3 times leh :x so cool worr :) dun doubt our awesome God! wuahahhaa! then meanwhile.. i was thinking a lot la. forgot what i was thinking alr. OHOOHHOOHH. i rmb! i was thinking of what to blog the next time i blog. LOL! dun ask, cos i dunno why.. :D just made interesting :x HA. (i mean me) i also read all the messages :D THANKS YOU!!!! :$ i'm really bad at rmbing birthdays so... its like.. ppl rmb my bday and i didn't rmb theirs.. like so bad lo. so said sorry to some and asked for their bdays.. I'LL REALLY TRY TO RMB NXT TIME T_T really!!! i'll record down!!! heh :) sry ): ppl, pls tell me your birthdays! (MUST) okay.. anywho...

hmmm.. where was i........ at home. ha. ha. ha. hmmmm... okay. playing pet society in facebook now. HAHAHA.. so kinda distracted. -.- okok.. where was i! i can't think! BRAIN BLOCK T_T

okokok. so after awhile, i managed to sleep! yeepee! but woke up after awhilewhile. then went back to sleep again. i'm such a light sleeper. hate it knowz. T_T hard to get enough sleep! can't catch my beautyyyyy sleep. but see, i was able to maintain all this time. HE-HE..

soooooooooo well! how i celebrated my birthday? i wasn't planning to. firstly cos... i really dowan to spend so much alr. my parents working their butts off.. & just because of my bday spend 100 over? nah.. i rather not :) (such a filial daughter) secondly, okay.... theres no secondly. secondly, same reason as the first one. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA... HAHAH.. hA... ok no ones laughing. ): but well... i didn't expected what happened today. :D

okay. after the quite okay Emath paper1 today, xuemin, eileen, geokting and i went lunching, or rather... brunching & then went to watch HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3! IT WAS..... wow :) for girls la. cos troy is nice and... gabrialla? or however you spell it, is nice too! i like their songs.. getting matureer now :) nice lo nice lo :x and GEOKTING AND XUEMIN CRIED?!!??!?!?! DURING THE SHOW! LOL!!!! i was like.. wow wow wow wow this wow that! & they were crying! LOL! they were thinking about sec 4 express people leh! be touched! (for those sec4 express ppl who are reading..... if there are any LOLOLOL) ok. i think you won't understand why they cried until you watch it :) (hmmm.. on second thoughts, not really. i dun understand why they cried still :P) so ya! anyway.. the noob guys who were sitting beside me said it was boring.. i think they dun understand the story thats why. yaking & yaking all the way. wan to smack! =___= the girls behind us also... YAK YAK YAK! TALK TALK TALK. LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH. wanted to turn ard and 'EXCICUSEEE MIIII....'. but nah, i'm a nice person.. ENDUREEE THEIR IRRITATINGNESS. haha! turned ard a couple of times though. but kept my cool. two thumbs up for me. hehe..

i think the show was super nice :) i like it when troy and gab was dancing the waltz on the roooftop! superrrrr the lomantic worrxz :D okok. WATCH IT YOURSELF! not gonna say anymore! :x you can't force it out of me! you can't........ you can'...............
NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU~!

ok shutup.

hmms. then went home early cos tot wanted to go out dinnering with family. but instead, my mom made up a half true story to get me down to the bbq pit. (i said HALF TRUE, so some of the stuff she said was true!) she said that she saw a cat's tail at some place.. [true] and wanted to look at it somemore [falsee] so she asked me get ready to go out. i tot we were going to some nice dinner place. so i wore some dress. (YAYAYAYA. SHOCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKk. whatever) after getting ready, mom suddenly disappeared. so used a little of comp while waiting. then suddenly she came home! & told me to faster come down with her to look at the cat. [false, she didn't want to look at some dumb cat!] then i asked her where she went just now and she said that she was talking to the security guard about the cat. [which was actually true, strangely] so i was like... okay............ & went to change cos.... "WEAR A DRESS TO SEE A DUMB CAT DOWNSTAIRS?" so i just wore some stuff that i saw in my closet. lol. just really quick, changed and went down with her. then in the lift... (our conversation)..

cute me: why you suddenly wanna go see the cat? its just a cat what.
mommeh: something might happen to it.
cute me: what, cat abuse or smth?
mommeh: (gives the i dunno face)
cute me: then you might as well save all the cats in the whole world
mommeh: (speechless. LOL, can't find any excuse huh huh huh!)

so funny la! but honestly, i didn't suspect anything. i wanted to see the cat anyway. cos well, i like cats! duh. :) & i tot my mom was starting to like cats too -.- ha.. ya right ): ok so follow follow follow... she bought me to the bbq pit area. then i saw smoke at the bbq pit.. but i tot to myself.. "mom will never throw a surprise party one la. its not like her." so i dropped the idea about surprise party and stuffs.. then after that..... i saw a bright light! & i was blinded!!!!! no. someone took a photo of me.. :O! the flash was big. really. and she took me with my super unglam-ness! T_T (my mom hired a photographer. cool eh? haha! free btw. so stop saying rich rich rich whatever shit :P for me is free la. cos she see i cute)
okok so.. I WAS SUPER.......................................... TOUCHED & SHOCKED that my whole cellgrp was there! standing at the side with a cake! X_X nt everyone was there though. would be better if everyone was! :@ oh well. alex was there too! :D coolness. so touched worrsxxzxz.. all of them came to my house just to celebrate with me T_________T i'm really really glad & happy & head over heelssssssssss that i have such great friends la :D my cellgroup & everyone who rmbed my bday!!! & my 'gang' LOL. i have a gang lehhhh :x

okay. this is for you guys! simple, but i really mean every word.
THANK YOU!!! i really dunno what to say... to express how much i appreciate the things that you've all done for me.. small or big, its the intention that counts! i'm actually really happy that xuemin, geokting and eileen went to HSM3 with me :D really! i dunno why also. :) & i'm glad that i've such nice nice nice friends that'll stay by me always....(RIGHT????? LOL) right! so.... thanks.. so so so so so much. the fun we have tgt.. I WILL NEVER FORGET IT! & i've neverrrr neverr neverrrrr NEVER regret knowing every single one of you guys!!! :) tytytytytytytyty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

g'night! its late! : D

{& thats why i'm happy today} :D

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ohohhohoH!!!!!!!!!!!!! & i love God really verryyy much.. :D just ANOTHER random thought :))
yeah. g-night (again).

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hellllo! i'm posting in the middle of the night! am i cool or what! HAHA :D

let me show off my editing skills! (if there is any, ha. come on, i have to agree right... i dun have any lessons or anything leh! just purely skills :x HE-HE :3) (somemore, all i have is some dumb program. that means not much variety so.. dun expect much :D) & just to warn you.. some are really ugly :D HE-HE.
i think yingmei is reallly prettay! (ym! be touched! cos i dun randomly say that :D)

geokting said that Xuele is becoming prettier! & yes i totally agree! :D haha! just a random thought :D

and yesterday the yesterday, i got sqeeeshed by the bus door! stupid driver said that button spoil. services are so bad nowadays. LOL! :x sqeeesh customer leh!!! lol. no, seriously! if the driver sqeeshed me once, i dun really mind la. its okay der, i'm merciful lol! but TWICEEE LEH! i'm not being bossy or petty or whatever lor. i just dun like it. lol! super scared this kind of things. dun ask me why, i also dunno why D: heh. thats also the reason why i hate lifts. scared they sqeeesh me too. >:C

today... today..... libin ahh...... RUBBED MEDICAL OIL ON MY CUTE LIL EYE!!! D: couldn't open my eye! kenquak said that my eye was as tiny as his. i totally agree! :D HE-HE. but irvin's eyes are tinier :) thats a compliment! heh. eileen likes bois with tiny puny eyes :D heh.


mom said something that really changed my thinking a lot.. i shall apply! she said that a little girl from england always go around school and find out stuff about people.. kpo she may seem, but she talks about the nice stuff those people do.. telling people nice stuff about them. & thats the way we should be! :D saying nice stuff about people instead of the negative! that'll make this world a better place to live in. :))


& i really liked the covenant my cellgroup had together.. just another random thought. :D

time to sleep? maybe. g-night!

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time to post some photos! :D if you guys didn't know, it was EILEEN'S BIRTHDAY ON 15TH OCTOBA :D & we went out! so hereeeeee ye gooooooo..
xuemin, geokting and jingjing's hair. hair splits!
er. i dunno what we're doing so...
xuemin is a baddddd actress :D haha!
fish mouth :3 everyone notice melanie! she can't do it :x

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OKAY HI! i'm backkkkk! hopefully forever. haha.. :) i declare this blog officially ALIVEEEEEE!!!! woooo! jumps around & celebrate* :b ok retard. hmmm. what have i been doing recently you may ask? ^^ (HAHA) i've been bbqing, running ard with a watergun, i was homeless and slept at xuemin's house, adventuring singapore, booking the face (facebook), err... and playing miniclip games to entertain myself. ): & etc etc :D

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